Good enough?

The shimmering illusion of borrowed dreams
A goal beyond most people's means
Striving to be the epitome of another's ideal
To show them I'm committed, to prove my love is real
Why then do I have to be someone else,
And how much am I doing it for myself?
Does it matter, if it benefits all?
Am I just setting myself up for a fall?
Is it selfish of me to want to clear up my mess,
When my presence affects others happiness?
Well meaning though my intentions are
If I'm absent, would they be better off by far?
Ambitions for the future that aren't my own
But will guarantee my place in what I call home
Burn them onto my mind, erase all thoughts of me
Can I do that? Is that something I could be?
I try and I fail, Try again and succeed
My own Sisyphus' rock, but do I want to be freed?
So many questions as I question each motive
How much longer, how much more do I have to give?
Don't get me wrong, if I could change I would
It's just I keep wondering if I'm doing any good.


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